I'm still alive!

Haha,

Just realised it's almost been a year since my last post... I'm still alive, and (as it has in the past) this gap hasn't meant that I've fallen off the wagon. Still the same weight, amazingly...! By the amount of effort it's taken to stay here you'd like i weighed 400 million kilograms...

Things have been a bit tough this year - my course slowly drove me insane as i gave up more and more of my outside life to make time for it... until i had nothing, and was actually living at the hospital (yes, literally)... and understandably every part of me started to scream "got to get out!" I took 6 months off, and have just enrolled for my last two years in semester 1 next year. I'm going to be moving back to the same hospital accommodation, but have given myself a few rules:

1) Spend my free time either studying or talking or eating in the common room (NOT hidden in my bedroom), and don't ever say no to going out with friends (unless i have a really legit reason)

2) don't give up soccer next year, even though it will mean a heck of travelling in the week to normanhurst...

3) go home on weekends...

4) keep working 1 1/2 days a week - say no to uni if you have to... because that time is "Me" time!

sigh i hope my plan works... because i really just want to hurry up and graduate and get out of being a student...!

XOX Nikki

Soccer season starting soon!

Ok, soccer season is starting in about 8.5 weeks... it's time for the C25K program again...

i actually want to finish it this time, so maybe I'll run a bit slower...!




xox

Remerging (again)!

Hey all,

Yeah i disappeared again for a while. But you know what the fantastic thing about disappearing these days, is that it doesn't mean a relapse for me anymore...! I'm still within my healthy weight range... Maybe some day i'll want to be a bit slimmer, but I'm ok where I am for now! And the best bit is - that it hasn't been hard! Because of the changes I made when losing weight (i was going to say: "it was a lifestyle change" - but how many of us who say we are undertaking a "lifestyle change" can honestly live with that?), I've been able to eat what i want when i want, and not even think about my weight at all to maintain it. Does anyone else think that's great? It's like my body has found the new me, and liked it so much it automatically wants to stay there!

So how long has it been now since i went on a plight to a thinner me, forever, and sustainably?

Well it's been a whole year. For the first time in my life, I've maintained a thinner weight for a year, with no pain, no difficulty no nothing. In the past: I'd lose the weight in 2-3 months through ridiculous eating-restriction and exercise regimens, and then within a month or so would go back to the weight i was before, usually more.

Well anyway, i'm going to get out of my pajamas and stop being a lazy bugger!

Love Nikki