Still chugging along...

Here's my post from this morning:

"Well, despite all my quibbles over the last few days about whether i had broken my famine reaction or not, and what was going on - today i woke up and felt ready to tackle those next 5 kilograms!!!

So here i go again... and if my starvation response kicks in in a few days, then i know i was mistaken and have to wait a bit longer... let's hope i don't as i'm keen to slim down nicely!"

Well the starvation response was still alive and kicking this afternoon, and i started to panic about having to cut down my food intake any more. I guess I need to stay on maintainence a bit longer.... DAMN! Just have to keep remembering that it's only going to be harder if i try to do it now. ANd i need to focus on eating what my body wants, and not what i know is a "diet" food - i confess that this morning that has been all that has been on my mind, trying to reduce my daily caloric intake to as low as possible - which we know is not the way unless i want to binge my way up to HIGHER than 80kg.

I've been thinking, though, this last month i have been eating nowhere near like how i was eating when i had my first 5kg loss at the beginning (80-75) when i was on 'maintenance' and my body stabilised back to the weight it should be. I guess i just need to go back to that, but its so tough to do...

Well, i'm going down to have my coffee and 2 bikkies that i've been holding back on having all day...!

Love Nikki

PS: just started on a the "couch to 5 kilometres" thingemy today (www.c25k.com) with the podcasts. Starting at week one, as you are supposed to, and actually finding it reasonably easy - i think probably because I could already run a bit. doing an interval alternation of 6.5km/hr and 12km/hr - and pushing myself to do 16km/hr for that last 60 second interval. For some reason at the 6th interval i started feeling really dizzy and ill - i think it was cos i was trying to get lots of oxygen into my lungs and might have ended up hyperventilating!!!! so i had to stop the podcast for 2 min and walk at 4km/hr to walk it off, then started again. Silly me!

PPS: what i am finding strange, however, is the fact that i'm holding complete abhorrence for the idea of having a croissant right now. I know that sounds strange - but If i'm having a starvation response thingemy, then shouldn't i technically be craving that sort of stuff? nevermind, i guess i can't hurt to hang maintaining until i'm sure...